Something is wrong - I am broken.

Everytime I sit down to play, I just give money away. This has been going on all month.

I am not focusing and spewing and tilting. And showing a lack of interest.

I either need to start smoking weed or taking aderool or something.

My mind is all over the place. of course I'm dealing with a million different issues that can cost me a huge amount of money.

Played all day with a non working hand history. Super smart. Also talked on phone with a bunch of reps while 5 tabling, 4 HU vs 3 diff opponents. Lost like 14k like an idiot. Super annoyed.

Also pretty hard to get action. Random donks will hit n run me. I'm losing to random bad and mediocre regs. The good regs won't play me. The super good regs will play me, but I don't feel like playing world class players when I'm playing like garbage.

Something awful is going on with me.