3 months of suckouts, coolers and tilt.

I have been running absolutely terrible for the last 3 months. My confidence is shot. Everything I do goes wrong:

When I have it, they suck out or have nothing.
When I don't have it, they call.
Any flip, I lose.
Any cooler goes against me.
If I tilt, I tilt large.

3 months of this. I have been mixing in a lot of live play...simply because I need money and they are beyond awful. It's funny, I haven't seen so many runner runners in a row ever. Live is rigged beyond anything I have ever seen. I have been putting my money in 70% or better to somehow lose every time.

One hand I played sticks out in my mind:

I open 67ss UTG, both blind call.

flop 67Jr

Jay: $50

SB: $170

Jay: $350 more

Sb: Call

Turn: T

River A:

SB: ATo

Jay: Muck

I can't beat a live 5-5 game. That's ridiculous. The play is worse than .25/.50 online.

I also played this hand which amused me to no end:

I open KxKx in EP. Both blinds call. Blinds never fold.

Flop is Ac3s4s.

It's checked around.

Turn: 6s

It's checked around

River comes some brick like a red 9 or something. Checked around again.

Sb shows J5o, BB mucks. I show Kings for 1 pair. Then Sb asks me: "Why didn't you bet?" Jay: "Would you have raised?" Sb: "No, but why didn't you bet?" Jay: "Would you have called?" SB: "No but you should bet there." So the rest of the night I tried to play pots against this guy as much as I could. He kept amusing me by winning 1 pot where I cbet $50 into KTx w/ 89o, he called, river came a Ax. Then he shoves all in for a huge overbet having me way covered. So I hollywood it then fold. Someone asks him if he had the straight...he smugly replies that he didn't but because all I do is raise and bet he decided to stick it to me. It was cute he neglected to tally all the pots I won off him where he would limp and call large raises and then fold the flop.

And the best part is...the worst player at the table (a different guy!) who kept putting his money in as a dog vs me and sucking out challenges me to 10-25 HU. IMMEDIATELY my friend sitting to my right asks for half my action. That was an interesting change because I'm usually the one doing the HU challenging. I would have instantly played him had I not been running like absolute hell for the last 3 months but I think it may be time to practice some (gasp!) bankroll management and not get rivered for 5k and then tilt off another 10.

2 things still puzzle me:

1. How in the world am I losing in these games? I should be walking out with 2-3k every time. I am embarassed for myself that I have dropped so low as to retell bad beat stories from 5-5 live games. This is really a new low...even for me.

2. Why don't any of these guys play online? 30 hands an hour sucks!

Anyone want to lay me odds on how long until I am completely busto?

J