I am a spaz, I am a spaz, I am a spaz, I am a spaz

If I was in poker school I would have to write that on a blackboard 1,000 times or something...

I hate merge, I spaz the fudge out every time I play cash on there. Slumming their tourneys is boring enough, but I can not compose myself when I play cash, it is seriously just a repeating pattern. Hit every flop win a few buyins get coolered lose all back, rinse repeat, except when I lose back I spew more. So if I play HU there any more, I am quitting everyone once I am up 3 buyins. I am king of getting unstuck, but I am bigger king of getting way stuck.

I am running awful in the tourneys, getting deep is no problem, just when it gets down to 15 people or so I get 3b 4 out of 5 opens, or flatted and never have the goods or never flop a pair and I just dwindle a bit then get 6th-9th.... Don't think I have done better than 4th in anything this week but have final tabled like 15-18 tourneys (no brag on the final tables, half the fields are under 100 players) (don't even feel like calling them final tables)

I am destroying everleaf with my run good and no tilt there. I don't know why I do not tilt there, PDC is becoming my new FTP, seeing the software makes me lose my fucking mind. They owe me 12,500 for checks I never received and that were deleted out of my ledger (yea looks like I am feeding a bogus lie to them whenever I told them this happened, they think I am trying to pull off the most retarded scam I could come up with), I feel legitimately cheated along with Moose and Jay and another guy and then all the old school regs from lower stakes starting threads on 2+2 asking if any other old schoolers are winning a dime there. Like doom switches from hell on there... I hate the fact that I am even playing there, I do not trust the integrity of the site and I hope they rot in hell for all the troubles they have caused.

I have been fishing a lot, I caught a nice flathead catfish weighing 32 LBS last weekend. Planning on going again tonight, though its semi cool outside and rain got here faster than I wanted, warm front coming in in the next 12-18 hours would much rather hit the head of that to fish but probably wont.

Cliff notes - I am a spaz

Runnin bad slummin bad

Somehow I manage to lose 7 buyins + to 3 different people in 2 days playing 1-2 hu.... Pretty sure if I could see their cards with a super user account I might not have been able to break even :/ (thats a lie, but it was stupid)

I need boom switch, wonder twin powers activate!

Why is merge so god damn slow with withdraws too... this is brutal, I need $$$$$

Kotton ignore them haters, be a player, play the game.

Send all money to daduhweewah on merge, it will go to a good cause.

If you dont then fuck off

O DEAR LORD BABY JEEBUS

OK I am back, despite Merge being assholes who owe me money, and probably screwing us out of money.... (maybe me moose and jay are bad enough to lose like 2k buyins.... I am for sure, but Jay??? and Moose????!!!!???)

I am slumming tourneys (though I just bust them when I am bored cause I hate them and they pay peanuts) and 1-2 and some 2-4....

Moose and Jay would only loan me peanuts (Moose gave me 1500 on merge and 1500 on minted, and Jay gave me the finger) Little faith they have. I am up significantly considering I started with peanuts. But still a long long long way from where I need to be. It sucks knowing I used to be legitimately wealthy (for my area of the country definitely) and now being poor. But whatever, just fuel to the fire gotta keep working on it.

0 to 6 figures by new years? Probably not, but thats the goal.

I am back blog readers... mark it on the calendar.

Why does my semen have blood in it?